Idk. Depressed.

Why is it that everytime something good happens in my life, everyone wants to either fuck something up within their life which effects me or they want to leave me. Shit. I sound emo. I guess I just need to suck it all up, huh? But with all this it's making me think of past things that have happened. I mean I've lost people.. so many people.. so many friends.. but friends come and go.. but.. what do I have? I get to stay here alone.. Lonely.. I have my family. I have my boyfriend. Only thing that's missing are my friends.. I guess I'm not very understanding. Also, my boyfriend has a temper, not with me, but it was crazy cause that was the first time I saw him that mad, last night. Meh. The only people who have been talking to me lately are Timothy, Josh, Jeff, and the people from the clan when I'm in there. Jenny talked to me yesterday, and Kacee talks daily. So why am I still depressed? :( Well.. I just feel so lonely.. Has anyone ever lost a best friend before and then get another.. one that hasn't tried to walk out yet. Then they want to stop talking to you for about two weeks. Just to test themselves. I just don't understand. I guess that I'm just not that way. But yeah, we haven't been talking much cause, well, she has work and college. I have school and I have to sleep at night so I can get up early. It's usually late at night when we were able to talk. When neither of us were busy. I don't know. I just know that I have to get ready for school. It's 6:45. The bus will be here soon.. I guess my Love is still asleep.. Good.. He needs it.. Well.. Off to another day of pure Hell. Talk soon. <3

Music: I'm sorry I am- brokeNCYDE

Mood: Meh. Blah. Depressed.

Book: Newww Mooooooon.

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